A while back, I noticed that I had been cultivating a very bitter angry spirit deep within my soul. My heart had been heavy and I didn’t know why. I was been fruitless. There had been no joy.
Have I been depressed? No, I do not believe so. Depression was something different than this.
It was much more serious than that. I had retreated within myself and was trying to do life in general, all by myself. Looking back over the past few months the only thing I have been good at producing is impatience, anger, harshness, and dealing with pride issues.
The only fruit was rotten fruit. Rotten, as in, it did not taste good. Maybe I should call it counterfeit fruit.
This was not where I wanted to be. It is where Satan wanted me to be residing. My daily time with the Lord had trickled down to a few minutes here and there. My prayers were being uttered as I fell asleep. I felt empty inside. And as a mom and wife, that is not where I wanted to be.
So what did I do?
Recognizing the fact I was acting alone was the first step. I had noticed that my relationships with my family were becoming strained. I began to feel resentful of everything.
This is where anger and bitterness began to creep into my heart and attitude.
I knew where I went wrong, one morning I was “too busy” to read my Bible and have my quiet time with the Lord. Then the next day, I woke up too late to read the Bible before rushing the kids off to school. Then one week had slipped by before I had even opened my Bible in an attempt to be in the Word. Before I knew it my Bible was not being read.
Without daily quiet time, there are no fruits of the spirit being produced. It is impossible to have a joyful spirit without a relationship with Jesus. In order to have a relationship, you must have daily fellowship. Daily fellowship involves shared common time and to become friends with Jesus. This is done by reading the Bible, meditating on what it says, and praying.
I know that as a mom it is impossible to have a nearly perfect quiet time every day. Distractions occur and life happens. However, there must be a concentrated effort on our parts as mothers to make the time.
You have been given free will which means you have the choice to choose Him as your Savior. And that also means that you must make the effort to pursue a relationship with Him as your Savior. In Matthew 7:7, it says, “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”
Jesus is there. Faithfully waiting. Patiently waiting, but He won’t be intrusive in your life.
The second step of action was to get my quiet time back in order. Every morning reading my Bible, with my prayer journal, and a cup of tea.
And the final step involved repenting. Repenting of those nasty rotten fruits that I had been producing. I was making them miserable.
As women of the home, we are the heart of the home. The attitudes of our heart determine the whole atmosphere. If we are kind, loving, and gentle are home will be joyful and content. However, if we are embittered and contentious women, our homes will become a place of strife and discontent.
Sisters, you hold the key to your home in your heart. Guard it carefully. Be overprotective of your home. Don’t take your time for granted. Time is a precious gift not to be wasted. Spend it wisely. It is an investment you will never regret. Spend it foolishly and you will regret it the rest of your life.
“So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law. The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.” Galatians 5:16-21, NIV).
My prayer for you is from Psalm 51:11-12, “Do not cast me away from Your presence And do not take Your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Your salvation and sustain me with a willing spirit.”
Dear Sweet Mama’s, you cannot produce the fruits of the spirit (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control) Galatians 5:22-23, if you are not abiding in Christ. How much fruit we bear has to do with how closely we abide in Christ. When we abide in Christ, we are filled with the spirit, and thus become fruitful.
Stay strong Mama’s, let me encourage you to stay in the Word daily, and keep praying. You, as the keeper of your home have a lot of influence in your hands. It is up to you how you use it.
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